(07 Feb 2006 – 29 Jan 2010)

Birth from pain, peace.
Stricken with hurt, relief.
Springs of disarray, order now.
Away torments, new hopes bring.
Love from us, to her unreservedly, remembering.

We miss you so much Nadia.

“God works in mysterious ways when you allow Him into our lives. Earlier today I was pummeled by terrible bolts of mood-swings, those sudden moments where all one’s worst recollections congregate in an unannounced cacophony. Perhaps, it’s not something that an uninitiated could readily empathize. To prune, imagine depression in intermittent espresso shots. Just when I felt that it was going to be another dingy day, God squeezed a beaming smile from within me. I was dragging my disparaged spirit back towards office after lunch when I noticed a pram’d Caucasian boy of three thereabouts setting his eyes intently on me. The instant I drew up alongside him, he let out the cutest chuckle ever while waving his bitty hands up at me! His eyes lit up, resembling sparkles on a new year’s eve night. It was like he knew me. It was like God smiling at me through this little darling, reassuring me that He’s got me and everything is alright. I smiled wholeheartedly.” ~ Esmond Ng 11/01/12

“Sometimes, it’s one’s denial that keeps one alive.”
~ © Esmond Ng 08/01/12

“Whatever you think is, is. Whatever you think isn’t, isn’t. So what think you?” ~ © Esmond Ng 07/01/12

“Missing you like Crazy is an Understatement”
~ © Esmond Ng 06/01/12

So I’ve been told, a forest of Rainbows.
One of which to canter through, outstretched,
My arms would I its colored branches catch?
And perhaps its palette tinct would all my lows.
Or would I choose instead to amble,
Perceive each seven as if deliberate in order?
Feel every warmth of every hue with my eyes shut gently,
My head slowly, circularly rolls, onto my back, resting.
I may not know where I at within,
This forest but would I care at all this place in, better.
For I can smile at here the indelible memories,
Perchance its cast of blushes would in future bring me more.

“You can’t change things; you make the next happen.”
~ © Esmond Ng 27/12/11

“But a couple’s kiss destines their future.” ~ © Esmond Ng 27/12/11

“In-between those hustles in Life, I sometimes afford a snap of idle rumination, where things around me would slow, gradually, to a crawl, and just before anchoring to that irreversible still, I see. I see clearly what has passed, as if it were flashing in front of the now moored inactivity. Not I one who perfect-bethinks of my battered past, but more of an inability to remove myself from my aggrieved. When only in such allayed mood would I lose control and regret that breather of initially. What have I done or did not possibly? That time actually kills me, ironically, muffled from its chase, however impossible by this inasmuch logic. It is in such that while quietly wasting away, I think of you. That my disconnecting moments, they belong to you. And I realize, not least bewildered, that it is all I do these days. Then I wait. I wait for time to flinch again.” ~ © Esmond Ng 22/12/11

“The path of least resistance – Are the living all guilty of it? Why then, do I always thread the insurmountable?” ~ © Esmond Ng 17/12/11

It’s been an awful long time since last engaged we,
But that doesn’t mean our friendship to any less.
Still remember I thee as that lovely girl I first eyed,
Oh what joy, youthful infatuations from my past.

Thank you for creating that pivotal point in my Life,
And a juncture that I visit every now every then.
Say so today as I would have back then,
Ay, thy cherry lips and skin fair as palely ice.

Nae man can tether time or tide,
All’s gone are but memories which I treasure hold tight.
Irrevocably, my days more colored for met I you,
So fate and fortune decreed I met thee in my time.

“‎On afterthoughts, I’d amongst them leave you so all will see that even they, pale in comparison to thee.” ~ © Esmond Ng 14/12/11

“‎I would I were the cheek upon thy hand, the man within thy eyes and the kisses upon thy lips.” ~ © Esmond Ng 05/12/11

“‎It’s much easier to find something when the lights are on.”
~ © Esmond Ng 04/12/11

“I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.” ~ John 8:12

(07 Feb 2006 – 29 Jan 2010)

The memories you left, created treasures more King,
The pain we embrace, we rejoice for meaning we did.
Our tears, they bridge a stairway for us to reach,
Your wings around us surely, when hear we rustle of winds.

We miss you so much Nadia.

“Inherently, I believe everyone is capable of being truly happy. We probably just need to accept Life’s little bumps to appreciate the bigger hills we are climbing.” ~ © Esmond Ng 21/11/11

“‎Yellow be Red and Red be Yellow, depending. Perhaps then, both be Green.” ~ © Esmond Ng 11/11/11

I am antithetic not from Autumn leaves,
When my season arrives, too I wilt, fall and fade.
But I have felt the magic of Spring and warmth of Summer,
And through Winter I will remember Thee.

“I’m just constantly looking forward to the next thing that would occupy my mind. What do I do in the seconds in between?”
~ © Esmond Ng 03/11/11